Introduction to Running Home
“The earth seemed almost to move with me. I was running now, and a fresh
rhythm entered my body. No longer conscious of my movement I discovered a new unity with nature.
I had found a source of power and beauty, a source I never dreamt existed.”
Roger Bannister, The Four-Minute Mile
On May 6, 1954, Roger Bannister became the first human to run a mile in under four minutes—an accomplishment as groundbreaking as the first landing on the moon. Yet the quotation above is not, as one might think, from the height of Roger Bannister’s record-breaking career. It does not describe that first, illustrious sub-four-minute mile. It is not the peak experience of a highly trained athlete. It is a memory from his childhood: the experience of a young bo so filled with the beauty of the beach surrounding him that he ran for joy—and discovered the majesty of running.
This experience is available to all of us, and certainly to those who give themselves to running. For when we give ourselves to running, we give ourselves to the very best that life has to offer.
As I have run over the last 15 years, I have discovered deepening layers of tranquility: a new stillness, an expanded sense of freedom, and a peace and joy previously unknown to me. In these moments, I feel “on,” in the zone. I am connected with the environment around me. Not just to it, but as a part of it. I cease to be a spectator of my surroundings and become immersed in them. I am able to think more clearly and creatively, and problem solve faster. I find myself more open to the miracle of inspiration than ever before. In this way, running has become a moving meditation for me, and the doorway to a new, more spiritual approach to life.
For many years, this wonderful experience during running was a refuge that I could turn to at any time. When things weren’t going well in other areas of my life, I could always find shelter in running. I ran my way out of both drug and alcohol addiction.
Yet while running was an incredible
sanctuary, it remained just that: somewhere outside of the rest
of my life that I would retreat to—a
beautiful, peaceful, and private island that I visited as many
times as I could each week. There was running, and then there was
the rest of my life.
As the miles rolled by, I would think, “If only I could feel like this for a larger part of each day. If only I could take this feeling into the rest of my life, into my job, and into my relationships with my family and friends.” While the calming and uplifting effects of my run might last into the late morning, by the afternoon they would be crowded out by the business of living. Then, for the rest of the day, I would either be daydreaming about that morning’s run, or about where I would be running the following morning.
I knew one way that I could extend my experience—by running longer. This certainly supported my marathon training! I began to run further and further in preparation, but I eventually had to concede that there was a limit to how far I would be able to run each day and have any other life! For the majority of runners, even competing professional athletes, the fact is we are not running for 22 or 23 hours out of each 24. For most of us, most of the time, we run between one and two hours a day. The answer, it seemed, was to somehow remove the protective barrier I had placed between my running and the other areas of my life.
So I began taking my
life into my running and bringing my running more fully into my
life. My goal was to initiate a conversation between my running
and the other areas of my life, so that running no longer insulated
me from life, but rather propelled me toward the very best in life.
I began to bring a more conscious, meditational focus to a number
of my workouts each week.
This book is the result of this shift in approach. It contains 35 ways to bring this focus to your running, which can help create a seamless flow between your exercise, your passion, and your wider life. Through using the guided meditations in this book, the great majority of which have been written to be used while you run, you can focus upon and actively prepare yourself for a deepening of the energizing and uplifting experiences that running has to offer.
You may also discover that your running improves. As your present-moment awareness increases, the level of your performance and personal satisfaction will also increase. Physically, you’ll get more miles to the gallon. In other words, you’ll find that you can use less energy to cover the same distance and recover quicker from your runs. On a mental level, with increasing frequency you’ll find solutions to work and other challenges without actively thinking about them. With the help of this book, you can learn to focus not so much on looking for a solution, but on preparing a place for the solution to appear.
Running is certainly a wonderful experience
in and of itself. It can be a vehicle through which to establish,
nurture, and deepen our relationship with the divine inside of
us. As a result of your focused and intentional running, you will
feel more balanced, and for longer periods of time. Simply, and
through conscious intention, you can enjoy the peace and calm of
your workouts throughout your day. Beyond that, even, can be the
experience not just of running, but the sensation of being
run.
The aim of this book is threefold. First, to support those of you who are existing runners in building upon the levels of freedom, peace, and expansiveness that you enjoy in your running. To assist you in carrying those qualities deeper into your lives—into your relationship with yourself and others, into your workplace, and into your wider world so that it is infused with the joy and possibility you experience when running.
Second, to support both existing and new runners in bringing more into their running, by consciously preparing not just physically, but also mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. By bringing a focused awareness to your runs, you can connect with the experience of who you truly are: not a human being with a soul, but rather a soul—a spiritual being—having a human experience.
Third, this book is here to welcome those new
to running, encouraging them to embrace running as so much more
than mere physical exercise. Running is not only a tool for relaxing
and strengthening the body. It can also ease the mind and free
the soul.
Each chapter can certainly be used more than once. The wonder of this approach to running is that the meditations will meet you wherever you are in your life. You can return to a particular meditation when it seems appropriate and experience it in a new way—because you will be coming from a new place.
Why Running Home? This book is here to support you in running home to your heart, to your dreams, and deeper into your spiritual life.
Each day as I set out on my run, I remember that the place I am headed for is the place that I am about to leave—that I am running home. It may be a 20-minute loosener or a 20-mile training run; either way my destination is home. I like to think of the soul’s journey as the same. We are all journeying home to the place we started from, the very heart of God (whatever that means for you). For some of us, the journey may be longer than others; in the end, we will all make it home.
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I look forward to running into you (figuratively, not literally!) at the following upcoming events:
Long Beach Marathon
My home town marathon! Running through the joyous students at Cal State Long Beach has to be experienced to be believed!
Surf City Marathon
Cool surfboard style medals, a fast, flat course, and plenty of views of the beautiful Pacific Ocean. Of course, this marathon has also had it's fair share of intense rain storms in the last few years . . .
50-mile event (TBD)
I'm looking for my first 50-mile event, to be run somewhere in California. More news to come. If you have any suggestions, Tweet me!
“Toby Estler’s revealing and engaging personal stories illustrate that the outer journey of life is a mirror reflection of the even greater, inner journey of the Soul. A captivating read, this book will inspire you to greater physical fitness and deeper spiritual growth.”
Iyanla Vanzant, AuthorOne Day My Soul Just Opened Up.
And yes . . . that is me on the cover! Since publication, I have dropped 25 pounds, started running ultras, shaved the beard, and grown a head of hair! That’s one powerful book!
